in between...

something's off. she's different. there's a part of her thats out of reach, guarded. the part that she gave away, she's protecting it holding it close to her heart. for what? to never feel pain, to never get hurt again? or protecting it to cherish, to hold on, to hope? she never tell nor admit it. she still keeps on seeing him, she can't let go. i wish they would put their act together so there won't be any confusion occurring. whenever she disappears, i would think she is with him. i hope she would be forthcoming of her feelings and admit it to me. it's like being in limbo. left hanging in the air. why won't you just tell...please tell me... i won't hold it against you. why would i kept on insisting these observations? because deep down, and i would never care to admit it myself, she still loves him very, very much...