going to davao later...

just resting a bit, still a little weak. watching conan on tv with guest emma stone. she really have a husky voice, sexy, husky voice emma is. i want to see her, to hear it from her. and then it'll be over. i want her to be happy, i do. just have to check my emotion at the door. there is still the pain, the ache but little by little a numbing sensation is creeping in. i guess that's what they call desensitize feelings. don't know what i'll do when i'm in front of her. i don't want her to see me emotionally vulnerable. gotta get my A game up. uh oh, it's getting cloudy again, thick, gray and covering the entire sky. temperature dropped, the air is thick with moisture so it's going to rain. have to prepare my backpack. later...